...I am tired of being thrown down on the ground with the reverberating thud of emotional and physical pain...
..I am tired of loving with all I have, wanting nothing more in return than the simple soft subtle kiss of love being returned..
..I am tired of being hurt, abused, lied to, lied about, used, slapped, hit, and generally forgotten..
..I am tired of wanting to look into your eyes as I say this to myself, as my fingers make it appear before me, as I wish you were doing right now...
..I should hate you, not love you, not desire you, not cry over you, not feel you when you are not here, feel it when you are with another..
..I should be able to rip you from my heart, my mind, my now eternally damned soul..
